Debauchery and Gossip

So Friday night I was supposed to hang out with Ben and teach him to dance, but he postponed due to something about a friend getting out the hospital. So I went to have dinner with Robert instead. We went to Cantina Laredo downtown. When we walked into the restaurant I noticed a faux-hawked waiter at the bar giving me the eyes.

We had some delicious Chambord Margaritas and I had some delicious nachos.

Our waitress was a lot of fun and very social with us. She was giving us the scoop on the cute gay waiters there. I had enough drinks to ask her about the faux-hawk dude, which I knew was a mistake. He looked REALLY YOUNG and hello!!! I’m enjoying being single. She offered to bring him by to meet me and I told her that would be ok. I had only had two drinks at this time, so I don’t know what my excuse was.

Robert was all, “Man you have guts.” I don’t really get that, but whatever. It doesn’t take guts to meet guys and I wasn’t really doing any of the work. So she brought him over and he was really pretty, but so not what I’m into right now. Yet, I still flirted and gave him my phone number. We texted several times throughout the night.

After dinner we walked over to the Elephant Room to meet up with Jamie and Adam. I had never been there and I’m thinking now that I have, I don’t really ever need to go back. I sneezed literally like 12 times while I was in there. Obviously it wasn’t meant to be. Oh and I had a few drinks in there too.

From there we walked to the Rusty Spur where more drinking ensued. I don’t think I got too tipsy, but apparently everyone else thought so because people kept asking me if I was ok and who was going to get me home ok. Jim came over and was acting all sweet but that was just so he could stick his hand in my pocket to steal my keys and give them to Robert.

I honestly don’t think I was all that drunk; I was just in a VERY GOOD MOOD and having a great time. Granted if I was sober I probably would not have done all the crazy things that I did, but who really knows? I am pretty crazy like that.

I did have a fantastic time and I danced a lot. I met a nice guy from Houston that dances very well.

“S”, who has been kissing on me for weeks, and whom I recently discovered has a boyfriend that also goes to the bar, came over to kiss me and I let him… and then I said something like, “I don’t think your boyfriend would appreciate that. Yeah I know you have a boyfriend and I know he’s here and he’s probably a nice guy and I’m sure he doesn’t like you kissing on other guys.” I was so proud of myself.

Then I shamed myself by telling someone how hot I think they are and that I want to knock off their boyfriend and bury him so we can date. UGH!

Robert dropped me off at home and then took me to get my vehicle the next morning. I spent the rest of the day lounging around the apartment doing a lot of nothing. I watched TV, watched a movie called “Dot the I” and it was very good. It was super weird and twisted, but I really enjoyed it.

I thought a lot about the night before and felt bad about being so out of control. I’m not really out of control; I’m just really enjoying my freedom. I feel like I’ve been on lock down for the past 2 years and I’m finally free. I’ll settle down in a little while.

Saturday night I was thinking about staying in a being good, but then David asked if I was going to go out, so I decided that I could go out, be good and maybe redeem myself from the night before.

I must have been worse Friday night than I had thought because people kept bringing it up and asking me how I got home, if I was ok, was I hung-over and all that. It was a little embarrassing.

I was much more behaved and controlled last night. I didn’t dance too much, I didn’t do anything crazy, and I didn’t give my number out to anyone. Yay me!

Today I haven’t done too much. I watched two movies, one good and one BAD. I watched “Amelie” and I loved it so much. It’s definitely one of my top 5 movies of all time. I want to do fun and crazy things like Amelie… and I’m going to work on that.

I also watched “Kiss of the Spiderwoman” and did not enjoy it so much. I actually watched large parts of it on fast forward. I wanted to turn it off, but I really had to know how it ended.

I did laundry today, which so doesn’t suck as much anymore now that I’m only doing my laundry again. It’s also great now that I get to use organic detergent and fabric softener. I was trying to get Paco to go more organic and natural but he seemed to be dead set against it. Now I can be as granola as I want to be! YAYS! I won’t stop wearing deodorant though!

I talked to Kristi a lot today and we’ve made some super fun plans. Since she didn’t get to come here this weekend because of the stupid hurricane, she’s going to come this coming weekend. I’m so glad that it’s not far off because the anticipation would kill me.

Oh and about the gossips. I was pretty offended by someone Saturday night. Someone that I thought was a good friend said something really rude and I really hope he didn’t mean it. He was talking to someone I didn’t know and when I went over and said hi to him I introduced myself to the other guy. My friend said something tacky about me being permiscuous. Seriously, I just don’t find that funny. I am not permiscuous, never have been, and NEVER will be.

Granted, I know I’ve said that same thing to friends of mine, but I would never say it in front of new people, or someone that might take it seriously. Other friends of mine have also said the same thing to me, but yet again, not in front of people that we don’t know.

I think I was more shocked that this person would say it at all. What also bothers me is that now I’m 95% sure that he was the same person that was telling people that I had slept with Ben last weekend (which is not true). He was standing right next to me when I was talking to Ben and when we exchanged numbers.

That’s how I always end up getting a bad reputation, not because of what I’ve done but because other people can’t keep their mouths shut and mind their own business.

Am I being too drama about it?